hello to all of you out there,
    my name is Emily, I am almost eighteen, and i live in a hell hole in Oklahoma. I am in a small town that i am dying to get away from and i still have another year of high school. i work at sonic as a car hop with people i hold as dear as family. some people annoy the hell out of me, but it's still family. i want to be a writer and i want to get my name out there, i just can't on here. i am Emily to you, and until the cameras follow me, that is how you shall know me alone. speaking of work, i love it and hate it at the same time. my pay check makes me depressed (especially when i have to take care of my mom, sister, brother-in-law, and nephew). i am the only one in my family with a job and it is very stressful. our bills are $1700 in about two weeks to a month and i make about $150 every two weeks. luckily, we have food stamps. my life pretty much sucks right now. i suck at school, making money, and relationships. apparently, i was emotionally cheating on him. how screwed up is that? he thought i liked his best friend better than him and we'd be better off together. i had to break up with him over text because he didn't have the balls to talk in person and he didn't want to break up with me because he didn't want to take the shit people would give him. what a pussy! he can't even look me in the eyes now, it makes me laugh. i'm still depressed though, i wish he would just go move away or quit his job, he works at sonic too. any way, i want to get out of this dump. i want to get famous writing, become a teacher in London, and live the high life with an awesome hubby and kids. okay, i'll make my dreams smaller, i want to be emotionally and financially stable. i want to go to college. i guess i have to continue later...it's late. it's like midnight and i have to get up soon for school.

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